Hey guys, it’s Hadarah.
Most of you have seen my video on Why I’m no longer a Christian. When I recorded that, I never expected the video to get the 22,000 plus views that it currently has. All esteem goes to Yahuah.
When I started Set Apart Heart, it was just a place for me to share my testimony, and the music Yahuah had given me for Yashra’al (Israel). It’s been almost two years of blogging here and there are a lot more people coming into the truth. So many people are finding out who they are though favour of Yahuah. He’s opening people’s eyes and they are longing to reconnect to their Hebrew Roots and follow His ways. HalaluYahuah.
This is a small community but it’s growing. And I REALLY want to take some time out to get to know you. When I first released Yahuah Acoustics Vol.1 there were about 200 people on the mailing list here at Set Apart Heart.
Yahuah Acoustics Vol.2 came out just about a month ago, and at the time I am writing this, there are currently 590 people on the list. All esteem goes to Yahuah’s name. I know there are more people who will come, but before they do, I want to understand how to serve you better.
Your heart is what matters to me the most.
This blog is NOT just about my personal testimony, it’s about you, and your need for spiritual growth. We all have a need for spiritual growth. If we’re not growing, we’ll all be slowly dying. Set Apart Heart is about us growing as a Hebrew community together. So is it ok for me to ask you a personal question, so that I can get to know you more?
I’d love for you to answer the following question about yourself in the comments section below. You can also shoot me an email with the answer (but it REALLY helps me keep every thing more organized if you comment here on the blog.)
So here’s the question to answer in the comments.
What is the biggest obstacle you face when it comes to your spiritual growth?
In other words, what frustrates you the most about your spiritual journey?
Is it finding time to pray?
Is it the fact that you’re alone?
Not enough time to study the scriptures?
No energy to be able to focus in prayer?
No support from your family and friends?
In all honesty, I’ve struggled with ALL of the above. For you, maybe it’s none of the above, and you have some other obstacles that are getting in your way. If you would be so kind as to share that with me in the comments below I will be sure to read what you say. Sharing your thoughts will help us ALL to grow.
Thank you so much (in advance) for being willing to open up. Even if you don’t have much to say, every word you share will be treasured. And if you’re not struggling with your spiritual growth right now, you can share some of the things you wish were happening in your spiritual life that are not. Your honesty makes such a big difference. We’re all human so don’t be afraid. I want to share some of my struggles with you and the journey of spiritual growth that I am on too. You’re not alone in your journey and in addition to the music I share, you can expect me to start sharing more content about my own spiritual life as well. We’ll be growing on this journey together. Heart to heart. We’ll stay set apart.
I look forward to reading your comments below.
So don’t be afraid to share. Here’s the question to ask yourself and answer in the comments section again.
What is the biggest obstacle you face when it comes to your spiritual growth? Or What frustrates you the most?
I’ll see you in the comments! Talk soon.
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Hi there, I’m Hadarah Batyah. I sincerely believe that in order to have a spiritual walk that is authentic and true, the Word of Yahuah must be written on the inside of our hearts. That's why I write scripture songs and set apart music. Although I don’t have everything in my spiritual life all figured out, I know that Yahuah gave me the gift of music to serve Him and encourage your heart. I pray you'll be inspired by what you see on this blog. If you're curious and wanna know more- I tell it all on the
In this imperfect flesh and the evil system of things we all face obstacles.I am a Christian.God listens and hears the words of a man when praying in faith.Jesus is my peace.(Philippians 4: 7)-And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.(Philippians 4:13)-I can do all this through him who gives me strength./Freedom in Christ(Galatians 5:1)Thank You Holy Lord God King Jesus Christ Savior Creator Yeshua Messiah.The God of Peace Shall Be With You
Hi Darko, thanks for sharing what was on your heart. We may not agree on every spiritual idea, but our paths must have crossed for reason. I pray Yahuah continues to guide us all in His truth through His son, our Messiah. Did you have anything you wanted to share about challenges with spiritual growth? I know it’s not always easy to share things that make us feel vulnerable…. But it you feel comfortable you can share…
Hello Ive been walking in the truth for about seven months now,and Im loving it! However, my biggest obstacle is sharing the truth with people and not having them get upset or look at me sideways. Im not knowlegeable enough yet to debate with any Christian. With the “holidays” just passing it was tough for me because everyone around me was celebrating.I just feel alone in this walk.But I do praise Yahuah for bringing me back to my Hebrew Roots.
HalaluYAH Chantal i’m so glad you’re in the truth – welcome home sis. I know EXACTLY what you are taking about with the side eyes that people give lol. Stay the course sis. In time you will continue to find your own unique way of sharing that feels comfortable for you, and your friends and family will start to relax a little. Believe it or not this is the first year that my family didn’t send me any “Merry Christmas” texts lol. I committed to walk in truth during the Spring of 2013 so it’s been what… about 3 years now… and finally the people around be are kind of getting it lol. Kind of lol. I always say, i’m not a teacher, but I will share my testimony and my beliefs. Maybe we can talk more about some tools for doing that in upcoming blog posts and youtube videos. For now Chantal, there’s a resource page on this blog here with some great vids from my fave Hebrew teachers that I hope will help https://www.setapartheart.com/resources/ Or just click on the resource tab in the menu bar if the link give you any trouble. Thanks again for being brave and sharing with us Chantal! Sending Love & hugs!
Thank you so much Hadarah. I will definitely check out the resource page. May Yah continue to baruch you💜
May Yah Baruch you too Chantal!
Hi Chantal! You are not alone! I know exactly how you feel! I started this walk, last year January! And I felt so alone! I tried sharing with my family, but it was, and still is the hardest thing ever! They don’t even want to listen! I was doing this alone with my youngest daughter, all through last year, nevertheless, Yahuah made it happen for me! I shared the truth with my brother this year,and he started keeping the Sabbath with us on the phone! Now iI’m teaching three more people about the Sabbath, Feast Days, and The Father and Son’s Set Apart Names! It was not an easy walk, and it’s still difficult! Please be encourage, and pray for wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, so that you may learn His way, and that you may acquire the boldness to teach as well!
Love you!
Always remember that you are not alone! We are here for each other!
May Yahuah continue to bless you and lead you always!
Shalum…
Thank you for taking time to encourage other Angelina! The challenges we face are very real. Praise Yahuah that we are never alone.
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Angelina thank you so much for sharing your story and giving me encouragement.It feels good to know that im not alone. Love you too and may Yah continue to baruch you💜
You are so wlcm Chantal!
Shalum…
Hi Hadarah, thanks for the amazing videos your an inspiration! I would have to say the biggest challenge just now is staying on a path of follwing spirituality in general, Im surrounded by people who dont believe in anything and are not open to it, but this is just the beginning for me, Ive not labelled these new feelings and Im trying to follow intuition which led me to your `hold on` video in the first place! So excited 🙂
Chris, my brother, it’s great to hear from you again 🙂 The Ruach is leading you. Yahuah’s Set Apart Spirit is guiding you into all truth. Keep trusting in Him. He has you in the midst of unbelievers and He will cause you to be a light. Don’t feel down if they can’t see the light, and understand that He only has you where you are for a season. Eventually He will call you out of that place so you can worship Yahuah fully in spirit and in truth. So be ready for it when it comes. Keep looking up my brother!!
My challenge is staying focused on studying scriptures daily, praying without ceasing, and allowing distractions to cloud my Vision. Sometimes in all of the distractions my priorities are misguided. And when I collapse from my own actions and failure to seek Yahuah in all things, I am brought back to where maybe I should except for the needless detour.
Vernice, you’re not alone in that. I struggle with the same things. And i’m sure many others do. It’s our human nature, and it’s only by the Ruach that we can overcome. There are some practical tips and tricks that I’ve been trying out in my own life to keep me focused in study and prayer. I’ll share those with you in future blog posts & videos. For now, keep looking up! Let’s give Him praise because we can still hear His voice calling us back home. Halal u Yahuah! Sending love & hugs.
Shalom. One of my biggest obstacles was worrying about what others think. I have recently came to accept the Heavenly Father speaks to us at different times. So what’s for me is for me. Accepting this will help me grow spiritually and realizing not everyone will understand my personal relationship with the Almighty. I hv overcome it. Just Thght I wld share because like you said… We are not alone… Todah for asking.. Hby? If you haven’t shared already…
Hephzibah, thank you for sharing! Yes it’s true Yahuah has us all in different places at different points in our spiritual journey. The most important thing is that He’s calling us all home. I’m glad to hear that you’re an overcomer! More trials will come and we will endure till the end. HalaluYahuah! how about me? Yes I’ve been sharing in the comments as I respond to others, and i’ll be sharing more, much more as time goes on. But in short, the biggest challenge that i have right now is focusing in prayer and studying the scriptures daily. The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak! I’ve been trying a few different things to help improve my growth in that area. And soon I’ll share more of my journey with you all. It’s wonderful to have this safe space where we all can share. Thank you for sharing as well sis! *Big Hugs*
Hi Hadarah, and to everyone on this page!
I hope you are all doing well!
When I was a Christian, I always heard people say that we go through so much for being “Christian”
Well! We all know that’s not truth! Everyone upon the face of this world, claim they are Christians. Since I started learning and walking in the Set Apart way of Yahuah, it’s when I actually learned what is to go through struggles and what it is to encounter obstacles, that leads to frustrations! My biggest obstacle as a believer of Yahuah, is lying! It is something I am aware of, and at times it frustrates me so much whenever I lie! My other opstacle, is cursing! I use profanities, when i get angry! I am working on my flaws thou! However, my biggest obstacle of all, is dealing with my oldest daughter! The enemy is using her in every way he possibly can, to destroy what Yah is doing in my life! He is using her, to destroy my home, and it frustrates me so much to deal with this! She tried to throw a glass at me, however, Yahuah caused it to break in her hand, before she could even do so! She threw a chair at me as well! But I still have her living in my house! She calls me all types of names including telling me to shut up, that I’m sick etc. I just don’t know how to kick her out of my house! I don’t know where she will live, and I don’t have the heart to do it! Everyone thinks I’m crazy for still having her in my house! Nonetheless, I feel like I’m the stupidest person upon the face of this earth! I ended up in the hospital with an asthma attack few months ago, because of all this madness! I love my daughter very much, I just don’t know why she have chosen to be a disaster to me!
I know that as a believer of Yahuah, we are going to come across many obstacles, rejections, insults, and that we would even be told, we teach another Gospel! But we have to pray to Yahuah, to strengthing us, as we walk in His Set Apart Way! I have been through it all, and still going through!
I am encourage in Him! I know He is able to bring me through! I pray continuously for guidance, intructions, and strength to overcome all my opstacles.There were times, I just wanted to die! But how can I? Yahuah is not yet done with me! He is still molding me, to make me brand new!
I am giving thanks to Yah for you Hadarah, for giving each of us, the opportunity to express our difficulties as children of Yahuah, in this, His way of life!
I pray to Yah, that He may uplift us all, and that He may Keep, guide, lead, and instruct us all, as we continue in Him!
Thank you
Shalum…
Angelina you are a very strong person to be able to share so openly and i appreciate your honesty. May Yahuah continue to mould and shape us all into the person He has in mind for us to be! Yahuah’s will be done. Halal u Yahuah.
No! Thank you, Hadarah! May Yah continue to use you always for His purpose
Same to you Sumayah 🙂 same to you!
This is approximately five years old and today your words have encouraged me more than you’ll ever know. Thank you for sharing.
Praise Yahuah, I’m so glad to hear that, Java. Let’s stay encouraged and keep on looking up!!
Shalum Alykham dear ones. Truly this walk can be riddled with tests trials and torment. Be encouraged everyone. Pray to Abynu in belief and trust me He will stir up in you all kinds of courage belief trustworthiness and understanding.
I’ve been walking in the fullness of YHUHs truth for seven years now and every year I am given something new.
This walk is lonely. Too often we find peoole bringing the worlds religions into their walk. But YHUH surely divides the wheat from the tares.
As we struggle each and every day to try to understand His desire and will for our lives, we can know that He and He alone has plans worked out for us.
My greatest struggle in this walk is learning not to care too much. If that makes sense?
As a believer I understand the outcomes for disobedience. Not that I always walk in obedience but I fear for those who harden their hearts and try to walk lukewarm before Yahuah. Even their prayers are an abomination to Him.
Anyway, before I go off on a tangent, stay encouraged and seek the Will and Way of Yahuah. Let Him be your guide in all things. We would love to listen to our hearts but it is always deceptive. Let your ruach become achad\ one with His. It will never lead you astray.
Alykham Shalum
Achuth Tamara, 7 years is a long time 🙂 all praise to Yahuah! I’m glad you are enduring even though it’s lonely at times… Keep your head up cause the family continues to grow! Halal u Yahuah many more are coming home. One day we will all come together as one. Yahuah’s will be done.
Shalum dear sister!
As always, your genuine concern for Yasharal is so much appreciated, and never taken for granted! Your video about why you are no longer a Christian is PROFOUND!!! I believe it will help the babes indefinitely, who come along. And your Aysh is as handsome as you are beautiful! Praise Yahuah for the perfect match!
To answer your question, I can identify with all the issues you have listed…LOL. They take turns. depending on what is happening with me at the time.
Howbeit, there are two big issues that sometimes causes me to literally fight anger, and they are 1) the lack of love among the brethren, and 2) the many self-appointed, arrogant teachers (who themselves need to be taught) leading trusting sheep astray and causing much division in Yasharal.
The lack of love I noticed immediately upon entering this walk. During my time in Christianity, I had experienced a mutual feeling of humility, genuine fear, a looking towards redemption, support and love among the brethren. Sadly, upon entering this Walk, I immediately began to notice an arrogance, an argumentative, Know-it-all attitude– an aggrandizing of melanin and hair texture to the extreme, that it was taking preeminence over the worship of Yahuah. Also, the self-indulgence of who knows more than who, is daunting, and sometimes makes me wonder if we are really on the right track.
One of the big issues is whether Yasharal can keep the Feast Days in Captivity, which in itself is not a difficult concern. The problem is that there is no real Leadership, the desire to sit down and reason, all because of the pride of so-called teachers backbiting among themselves. No one wants to admit the possibility of error and so, we are not much better then Traditional Religion in that we are very divided. Where are the MEN of Yasharal to come together, call meetings to address issues? Where are they? And if a woman dares to say anything, she is often disrespected. I can well understand why there will only be 1/3 of Yasharal to make it to the kingdom….a Remnant. I hope we will be part of that Remnant, dear sister, and your Yahusaph, of course. 🙂
Well, I could say more, but I think I’ve made my point.
All esteem to Yahuah for all that you do.
Much ahab,
Alyashaba
My dear Alyashaba, thank you for sharing Achuth! And for your kind words about Yahusef and I 💕 😃 And I’m glad you can identify with all the challenges I listed. Thanks for sharing also about the specifics on your heart. As for the lack of love and self appointed teachers… There are those same types in every faith. Sad to say it’s true. But trust and believe we have the choice not to spend time focused on them. Lamadyahu Yashra’al from thepathtoyahuah.com has an excellent ministry and I assemble with them online almost weekly, Medadyahu Yashra’al from Living Branch Hebrew Assembly has studies online as well at living-branch.org and there will be those who we meet in our respective areas as well to fellowship with. Yahuah, praise His name, has allowed the Hebrew family in Toronto, my local area to come together as well. So sis I hear you but please be encouraged cause we can see the prideful teachers and ignore them. Let’s assemble with the ones who are truly called and we will continue to press forward in unity and love 🙂 I love you and thank you so much for sharing! I pray this response is an encouragement to you. Sending *bighugs*
Shalum Achut Hadarah,
Thank you so very much for your encouragement, my sister. You have made me realize that the same problems exists in every faith. I had reasoned that such would not exist among Yahuah’s enlightened, forgetting that we will be fallible, as long as we live upon this earth.
Yes, I am familiar with the teachers and assemblies you have mentioned here. Thank you much for sharing. Yahuah, in His mercy, has baruk me with a wonderful, humble and knowledgeable teacher since 2012 when I began to take this walk seriously, and for that I am extremely grateful.
I praise Yahuah for you, my sister. He has given you a great responsibility for which it is obvious you take very seriously. And now with a strong, loving aysh by your side, the journey will be even more enjoyable.
May Ab Yahuah continue to baruk you in all you do. HalaluYAHUAH!
I love you too. 🙂
Much shalum!
Halaluyahuah Much love to you too Alyashaba 🙂 And my sister what you said in your original comment is SO TRUE! It IS indeed a problem amongst Yashra’al. And you are right, it should NOT be happening amongst our people. But yes, we are where we are as a people because of sin. And the wheat and the tares will grow together until the end. And we can only continue to hope and pray that we all who are aligned with the Truth will continue to come together as a community and build, enduring until the end. It’s a very real issue. And i know that we will come together as Yahuah continues to provide and make a way for His people, by the people He has chosen. HalaluYahuah! Let’s look forward to that day 🙂
What frustrates me the most: When other people dont understand your calling, but even more than that when I cant find the words to express myself. I have a question for you, its sort of like an advice question. I was thinking about emailing you. Would that be okay with you?
Sure that’s no prob Alexis. Just click on the contact page in the top menu of the blog here and you’ll get my email. No probs.
Hey Hadarah, As I sit and contemplate on your question.. I begin to realize something as I started to look back on your old videos. Rochelle..smiles An as i listen to your confessions and songs and testimonies of your heart seeking the Father even then. An I start to realize I have the very same problem Now…Stepping Out and An worrying about what others might say. Pray for me sister as i pray for your well being and love to continue to grow IN Spite of What People might say.
ps.. By the way I admire that song by the way it has really been helping me to just let go! Shalum
Hi Sophia 🙂 Glad you’re still enjoying the music i made when i was a Christian lol. I hear you!! Yeah, I leave it up on youtube and iTunes cause i know it still speaks to people’s heart in times that they need it most… being in music for so long has really shown me that Yahuah will use us where we are 🙂 And he sure did, even before i knew His name 😉 But thankfully if we allow Him to, He won’t just leave us where we are. That’s the beautiful thing about this journey… we are all growing and prayerfully we grow closer and closer to the truth. So yes! Don’t worry about what people say Sophia! It’s a HUGE change for people to let go of an identity they have lived with for their whole lives, and walk into something new, but He does tell us that we are to become a new creature! He wants to do a new thing in us, and He will be faithful to complete it if we let him – no matter what people might say 🙂 Sending love & hugs my sister! I’m glad you’re here at Set Apart Heart <3
Dear Hadarah thanks for the possibility to solve problems and issues.
My bigest problem is that i dont have support from my husband about the truth of hebrew roots. I am getting stuck somehow.
We dont celebrate all these pagan feasts this is a big blessing to relax in this matters.
But i have not the freedom and support in Torah understanding from my familys side and going into it deeper or lead from my husband.
And the name is such struggle for him. Ahayah asher Ahayah was what he understood but all the changes made him confuse.
Marianne it’s so good to hear from you, and I know there’s no quick solution to your situation. Love, marriage, and spiritual foundation is such a huge topic. And it’s so complex and it must be regarded as such. What i would recommend regarding The name is for your husband to hear from another Hebrew teacher about how “I AM” is not a name, but a title. He’s not wrong in using those words to address our Creator. As long as He understands that it’s not actually His name…. take a look the context of scripture where it’s mentioned.
Exodus 3:13-15
“And Mashah said to Alahiym (Elohim), See when I come to the children of Yashra’al (Israel) and say to them, The Alahiym of your fathers has sent me to you, and they say to me, ‘What is His Name?’ what shall I say to them?”
“And Alahiym said to Masha (Moses) , “I am that which I am.” And He said, This you shall say to the children of Yashra’al, I am has sent me to you.’”
“And Alahiym said further to Mashah, “Thus you are to say to the children of Yashra’al, YAHUAH Alahiym of your fathers, the Alahiym of Abraham, the Alahiym of Yitshaq, and the Alahiym of Ya’aqob, has sent me to you. This is My Name forever, and this is my remembrance to all generations.”
I hope this helps… just looking at the context of scripture helps me so much. I will also share a couple blog posts that i shared once before here at Set Apart Heart. I hope they help! Here are the links below.
Why do we call on The Name
https://www.setapartheart.com/why-do-we-call-on-the-name/
The Name of Yahuah. Three Resources
https://www.setapartheart.com/the-name-of-yahuah-resources/
Much Love <3
Life has been difficult. Despite prayer and fasting and good behavior I seem to be the one who is doing the right thing but always seem to come up short.
Atheism is in the horizon.
Hi Carol, I’m really sorry to hear that life has been so difficult for you. It sounds like there’s a whole lot going on. If you would like to talk to me privately, I’d be happy to listen… just shoot me an email from the contact page. I’ll look out for you.
Shalom achoti, I gonna be very short and straight to the point with you, concerning my personal struggles on this what I’d call tedious journey at this time in my life!!I can honestly say that I don’t have any personal complaint’s about my life, simply because Abba YAHUAH has been so good too me and my hubby, His LOVE that he has demonstrated toward us time and time again, has been absolutely and convincingly assuring that He is with us always!!However, I still find myself struggling with ALL this new truth that Iv’e come into over these past few years, since Abba opened up my minds eye too see the truth concerning the religion of Christianity,which has been quite an awakening!that is sometimes very hard too come too terms with, especially when all you’ve held to be so sacred and true,then to find out is a BIG FAT LIE!!!can and is very confusing, troubling and disheartening to say the least. Which leads me too the point of what I’m really struggling with, which is my ability to have the same zeal for seeking the Father, spending quality time in the word with my only hearts desire was in drawing near to Abba Yahuah, that He may draw near too me :)And also having my mouth filled daily with singing praise and continually making sweet melody in my heart/ mind just for my Abba, experiencing His presence would be ALL I truly long for. So I guess what I’m really trying too say is that I’m really longing in desperation to get back to that place of closeness in my relationship with my Father Yahuah 🙂 But no matter where I’m at on my personal journey, I’m going to stay the course!! because I know who I belong too,so with that being said, I will keep on keepin on!! halaluYahuah 🙂 PS.WELL THERE GOES FOR KEEPIN IT SHORT! LOL:)
That’s alright MariYah, no matter how long or short these comments from you all have been, I’ve really enjoying that Yahuah has given us all time to connect in this way. Be encouraged my sister! Yahuah will hear the cry of your heart! I promise you. Ive been there before too. We all have these cycles of ups and downs in our journey. He sees how much you are longing for Him. Just allow yourself the space to be vulnerable before Him. He will never leave you nor forsake you. You will have that closeness again…
Shalom Hadarah! HalaluYah for life and true love! On the topic: What frustrates me is strife and debates about the Truth. It’s so much better when we can “agree to disagree” and be patient with each other as we are all learning. I guess my main concern is this – if someone is seeking truth and then sees us (who are following Torah) bickering a lot. ..that person may get turned off and turn away. So I try to be peaceful with my brothers and sisters -more importantly -than trying to prove who’s right. lol I love to learn. I enjoy healthy conversations with individual viewpoints. ..minus the arguments! This blog is a good example of good communication. I wouldn’t be embarrassed to refer someone to this platform. Shalom Shalom and please keep up the good work! HalaluYah
I agree with you about the disagreements AlyYah. It’s so true. And thank you for sharing what you said about the communication here at Set Apart Heart. Thats very meaningful… All praise to Yahuah… May He continue to lead and guide us all 💕
Absolutely. One of my brothers has a way of encouraging people to be open and transparent while maintaining an atmosphere of mutual respect. That, for me, makes Shabbat a delight!
Halaluyah! And speaking of shabbat AlyYah – i’m SO GLAD it’s just about here! haha. Oh man… need the rest. Shabbat Shalum!!
It’s here HalaluYah !! I need it too Sis lol. Todah Yah for Shabbat.
Shalom… first of all I just want to give thanks to the Creator for life…my journey has been quite a challenge I am not praying as I used to or as I should,I now spend little or no time in the scriptures which really frustrates me and I know it is up to me to take time to study the scriptures and I feel alone on this journey as my family have opposing views to my walk in life and to me it seems I am not growing…. My partner is not really on this journey and it seems like I am alone… I really need some motivation and some guidance….. however I am truly grateful to Yah for allowing me to exit all religions and understand my Hebrew roots… I desire to grow and learn I need some support….
Praise Yahuah Amaliyah…. the simple fact that you are admitting these things are true is the beginning of progress. Halaluyah. If we can be honest with ourselves about where we are, then and only then can we grow! Let’s brainstorm ideas for ways to keep ourselves on track. I would like to study the scriptures more than i currently do as well- let’s stay connected and we’ll grow on this journey together. Yahuah’s will be done. Shabbat Shalum!! *big hugs*
Shabbat Shalum Hadarah!
I saw your video “Why I’m no longer a Christian” when I first began to learn the truth and it was such a blessing to me, because it assured me that I was on the right path for seeking Yahuah. It has been a little over a year since I started the walk and I struggle with all you described above. I become disappointed with myself because I feel that I should be further along in my journey than what I am. Plus as others have stated, it can get really lonely in this walk. I still struggle with sharing truth with others and I need to study the scriptures more than what I currently do. I will continue to pray and discipline myself to spend more time with Yahuah. Tudah Hadarah for this post because it is comforting to know that I am not the only one struggling with growing spiritually.
You are most definitely not alone Falon, most definitely not alone! And i’m so glad you’re enjoying what you experience here at Set Apart Heart. Sending love & hugs. Keep on looking up!!