Not everyone knows what they want in life… Understandably so. At a young age, we graduate from high school and rush off to college and university. There, with little to no real-world experiences, we are expected to choose the direction that we will take for the rest of our lives. I don’t know about you, but I changed my major 5 times in university, and finally settled on doing a BA in Journalism – just because I liked writing and I had to pick something. The truth is that all I really wanted in life was to be a good wife and a mother some day.
We may think we don’t know what we want in life because society often tells us that what we want “isn’t enough.” Well-meaning parents and loved ones will often steer us away from choosing a career focus based on anything that isn’t predictable. So we are often guided to follow paths that are not authentic to our true selves.
But let’s be real – we are not children anymore. What do you really want?
In the last blog post, we started talking about your life purpose and reconnecting, at least on a surface level, to the spiritual gifts that Yahuah has blessed you with. Let’s go a little deeper today. If you don’t know what you want in life, or what Yah’s calling you to do, let’s try the reverse. What is it that you don’t want. If you’re in a job that you despise – I’m sure you can list all the things that you don’t like about your job. If you’re in a relationship that was never right to begin with – I’m sure you can list all the problems with your relationship. So why not take some time to consider what you don’t want? What are the things you are really tired of… What are the things you wish that you could change… And what do those things say about your values? What do they say about who you are?
Understanding the things you don’t want in life can help you figure out what you actually do.
Last weekend I asked people on my Instagram and FB page if they had any prayer requests. The responses people shared got me thinking… although making music is powerful and prayer changes things, there are specific needs in our community that need to be addressed; needs that often simply just go ignored. It’s almost like, as a community, we want to believe that if we are spiritual enough, all of life’s problems will go away on their own. Yes, Yahuah still works miracles – but there isn’t enough discussion around the practical steps that we can take as individuals in order to reach the place where we can find healing. When we find healing, it’s then that we will find ourselves ready to fulfill our purpose in life.
So many of us are struggling with relationship problems, family dysfunction, financial issues, depression, anxiety, loneliness, low self-esteem, emotional, and even physical pain… Leave a comment below if you’re going through any of the above. I’m just coming out of a season of depression myself, and the healing began when I started to get real about what was really going on, and taking practical steps to change my situation. Although we may not be able to fix every problem in a single blog post, or heal every wound with a set apart song, the least we can do is start talking about what’s really going on. I’ll be sharing more about this topic in the future, but let’s all start by being open and authentic about our problems. That is where true healing beings.
Sharing the struggles that we go through in life not only brings us closer as a community, but it helps us to wake up and realize that it’s time for change. If we want more meaning and purpose in life, if we want to be a light in our local communities, how can we do so if we are overwhelmed, stressed out, burdened with past problems, and struggling with present pain?
“Blessed is the man who does endure trial, for when he has been proved, he shall receive the crown of life which the Master has promised to those who love Him.”
Ya‛aqoḇ (James) 1:12
I invite you to leave a comment below and share what’s on your mind. Maybe you’ve had some really tough experiences that taught you more about what you don’t want in life. Let’s discuss and share together in the comments below. If you do know what you want in life but something is holding you back from getting it – you can leave a comment about that too. And if you’d rather just send me an email or a DM instead, that’s cool. I may not be able to reply to every email, but I will always read them privately and pray for you. Let’s stay connected as a community of believers and be authentic so we can lift one another up.
You are here on purpose, and Yahuah has a plan for your life. I keep saying that again and again because we need to remember that it’s true. Life can be overwhelming when you’re swimming in problems and pain, but believe it or not, those very same problems, once you’ve overcome them, could be the very things that fuel your purpose and direction in life.
So tell me in the comments, in one or two words, or twenty-five lol – What is getting in the way of you pursuing your purpose in life? What problems are pushing up against you right now? What is it that you’re tired of dealing with? What do you wish you could change about your life, your community, or your walk with Yah? What is blocking your healing and causing you pain?
I’ll see you in the comments below.
-Hadarah BatYah.
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Hi there, I’m Hadarah Batyah. I sincerely believe that in order to have a spiritual walk that is authentic and true, the Word of Yahuah must be written on the inside of our hearts. That's why I write scripture songs and set apart music. Although I don’t have everything in my spiritual life all figured out, I know that Yahuah gave me the gift of music to serve Him and encourage your heart. I pray you'll be inspired by what you see on this blog. If you're curious and wanna know more- I tell it all on the
This is absolutely right on time. I recently got engaged and my fiance has been a big help in my healing in ways I didn’t realize until today. Yahuah even confirmed through him and now you that even though I gave up on a lot of things to be true to Him doesn’t mean to give up on my calling. Now I’m working on being the Nurturing Nurse He’s called me to be all my life..a Nurse Registered by Him, helping people heal mind body and Spirit according to His Will, Word and Wisdom and He has blessed me with a husband who is helping me be Who Yah has called me to be
I did something and i learn me already doing with yah want me to i expected the pain to heal easily after I left my wrong engagement it has me left feeling impatient to heal as fast and as well as being new to who our creator really is i feel lost at time i just wanna make sure the walk in on I’m not following his laws i now learning slowly to give it time and i read his word to gain strength each day i fine peace when I give him my worries .
Deja, you’re on the right track sis… yes give it time… I’ve been there!! And reading the word of Yah is priceless sis… I’m so glad you’re finding peace in Yahuah… Praise Yah you got out of the wrong engagement sooner than later! May Yahuah continue to lead and guide you all the way my dear <3 sending lots and lots of love!! Let's stay connected.
Hello Sis Hadarah. i’m having struggles with the Truth since i’ve just woken up to this heavy and profound Truth. it definitely came at a time i was having a hard time healing, so now the burden is even more heavier…
I’m sorry to hear that sis… I pray Yah holds your hand through it all. Don’t give up, keep looking up!!
Oh Nichole, that’s so wonderful! Praise Yahuah.. thanks for sharing your story. May Yah bless you as you continue to serve Him 🙂
I am in agreement with what you have written, I am asking Abba Father for healing all over my body. To heal my brokenness, to let me know what’s my purpose here on this land?
Praise Yah – Rose you will be in my prayers sister! May Yahuah continue to lead and guide you all the way.
This is right on time hadarah oh wow it’s crazy. When I saw you posted this on insta I was going to read it a little later but something told me to look at it now and I’m so happy I did! Lately I’ve been struggling with knowing what I want cause like you said it doesn’t feel like enough and I don’t even know where to start. Being 20 years old everything feels like the end of the world and lately I just been going through a hard growth process. I asked YAH to heal me and it seems everything started falling apart because I started realizing all the pain around me I’ve decided to suppress. So it’s been messy. And I’ve felt lost. But I’m trying. And I’m trying to encourage others along the way. This post was a blessing. You are a beautiful woman of Yah. Thank you for posting this. Shalom
Leayah – I hear you sis! Always remember that you’re not alone. I’m so glad that you’re trying to encourage others along the way. Stay connected and keep sharing, cause you’re gonna get through to the other side – Yahuah is going to use you to touch many lives through your story. One day you’re gonna look back at 20 and be like… wow… look at Yah 🙂 Sending love and hugs to you sis! Shabbat Shalom and keep in touch.
Hadarah,
Thank you so much for writing this post. I have been feeling unfulfilled for the past couple of months. I currently feel that I lack clarity regarding my purpose, but I have been taking action by seeking the Most High and learning to trust the process. I actually started a blog about two weeks ago so that I could share my experiences with others as my purpose is being revealed to me. Your posts are always uplifting and encouraging. Thanks again! 🙂
Falon that is excellent. You started a blog so that you can share and connect with others on your journey. Praise Yah for putting that on your heart – if you’d like to share what it is, you’re welcome to 🙂 I know it can be REALLY hard when you feel unfulfilled, but keep on pressing in to Yah for His guidance as you are. Good on you for taking a step forward. Yah bless you Falon!! (BIG HUGS)
Big hugs to you too Hadarah! Here’s the link to my blog
https://falon-unplugged.com
Thanks for sharing Falon! 🙂 Looks great… Yah bless you on your journey!!! We’ll keep in touch 🙂
Blessed to read about the healing going on in your lives!
I am experiencing many changes inside of me as I learn to wait on YeHoVaH and sit back and watch how beautifully He takes each stronghold He demolishes and turns it into triumph! Then, as I continue waiting I see how the pieces fit together in His loving hands to bring about a deeper faith.
Things I used to think could never change are changing and all because He is having me wait on Him to do what needs to be done!
HalleluYAH!!! It’s beautiful to watch His handiwork!!!
Praise Yah!! Yes Tanya – sooo beautiful to watch His handiwork 🙂 MMMhmmm make sure you frame that puzzel once the picture is complete. Then watch Yah start a new one 😉 Happy to hear your good news sis!!
i have pain but it has nothing to do with what i want out of life. This is my pain, I have 4 teeth that need to be pulled. Once they are pulled then I will be able to get a hip replacement. But I don’t have $2000.and that is my pain.
Elaine, my sister, it sounds like you want at least $2000 out of life right now 🙂 We all need money to take care of ourselves, and MOST people don’t have an extra 2K lying around. Yes, let’s pray for your miracle, and also for Yah to show you if there is anything that can be done differently in order for extra finances to come into your life. Yah wants us to have everything we need. Press in to Him for your next steps!! Keep on looking up – I’m sorry you’re in pain, but remember Yahuah has a plan. “But you shall remember יהוה your Elohim, for it is He who gives you power to get wealth, in order to establish His covenant which He swore to your fathers, as it is today.’ Deḇarim (Deuteronomy) 8:18
Thank you Hadarah for your words of encouragement. I don’t know where to begin… just that from an early age I lost trust in most people and have been always alone. Trying to release from strongholds but seemingly failing. I want to serve Yahuah but feel unworthy. I don’t feel worthy of any love but hope and pray that it will change. Shalom achoti
Fumi, Thank you so much for sharing your truth and being real. Don’t feel bad about not trusting people. The scripture says, ‘It is better to take refuge in יהוה Than to trust in man.’ Tehillim (Psalms) 118:8. Just keep in mind that Yah is not like man, and as you trust in HIM He will give you discernment so that you can be open to recognizing when His hands are opening doors for you. When Proverbs 4:23 says to “guard your heart” I like to remind myself of what an actual security guard does. The role of a guard is to use discernment and decide who is, and who is not allowed to enter a building. You ARE worthy of love Fumi. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalms 139:14) Press in close to Yahuah, REAL close. Let Him love you and build you up and renew and restore your heart. <3 It's so good to hear from you achoti. You'll be in my prayers. Let's stay connected.
I’m 55 and still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. I joke, but it’s difficult and yes depressing to feel like a styrofoam cup drifting aimlessly down a river. 🤷🏽♂️ I’ve been asking Yah for a mission, with eternal value.
BTW, EXACTLY like you, I settled on journalism because I realized I had to finally decide on something.
Blessings Hadarah!
Yah bless you too Scott!! I’m sure He’s not finished with you yet 🙂 Stay encouraged and keep on looking up!!
This has been a year of sickness caused by a lifetime buildup of stress in different forms. Sooo much has happened in my life and major changes are happening these next 4 years. There is excitement and a feeling of being lost and lonely, mainly because we have no church family or friends in this smallish community where we live. We used to but that’s a long story.
Anyway, healing is a priority right now and a longing for mature friendships is strong.
I hear you Dawn… Stress is NOT a joke. People often just overlook it, till it all piles up and starts to manifest in the physical. I understand – I really do…. I’m glad you’re making healing a priority… It’s so important. Let’s stay connected. Sending lots of love.
Thank you for sending this email. This post got me thinking about my current situation. Me and my family recently moved to another state so I could become a teacher in the school system. So I go to school and work in school at the same time. The issue is that the workload and the job is so stressful that it is affecting my mental health on a daily basis. I dont have any time to spend with my family and most important YAH. I miss the days when I could just come home from work and work is done. But my work is never done. I literally feel like a person in bondage by a contract. Even though this is the most money I ever made it is not worth it to me, but in order to stay in school I have to work at a school. Everyone is worried about my health but if I quit how will we afford to stay where we stay? I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I know I want to teach but not like this.
I hear you Valleria – my my mercy what you’re saying is SO real. Thank you for sharing. I personally JUST had to deal with a very similar situation – choosing between making the most I ever had financially, and letting it all go for my the sake of my mental health. You’ll be in my prayers Valleria. Trust and believe that Yah will make a way. If you can, take some time to way out the pros and cons of different scenarios as well. Talk to your family too, and consider if there are any ways that they can help support you through this time. Don’t struggle alone, your health must come first, cause once you’re all spent there’ll be nothing left to give. Sending love your way. Feel free to email if you ever need a little extra support. (Big Hugs)
Hi Hadarah. At this time in my life I feel so lost and confused. Butter and alone. I have had a rough childhood and now a rough marriage. My husband hates me and that is something hard for me to deal with.
Peaches, remember this passage: ‘He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.’ Psalms 147:3. If you believe that your husband hates you, and you feel that you can’t communicate with him about it, give him space and press in to Yahuah. It sounds like there is SO much to unpack just in the few words that you’ve said. I just want you to remember that no matter what is going on in your marriage, you belong to YAH. And you were His daughter before you became your husbands wife. ‘Know that יהוה, He is Elohim; He has made us, and we are His – His people and the sheep of His pasture.’ Psalms 100:3.
When you start feeling lost and confused – and you don’t even have words to pray, start listening to the scriptures on audio in your headphones. You can get the Bible app for free “You Version” or go to bible.com and they have free audio streaming of the KJV and ESV. Sometimes I put this on for myself and I just let Yah’s word speak over me in times of distress. I hope it comforts you and brings you to a place when you can be renewed and be open to what Yah says is the next step. I love you my sister. You’ll remain in my prayers. Let’s keep in touch.
We are indeed not trying to appease you sis when we say right on time. I notice that when something hits my mind, next thing I see it in a post on Facebook, in a book, in a conversation with a brother or sister or in my dreams. Your last post was in my and my brethrens meditations, now yesterday we were talking about exactly this, inspired by a post on Facebook that said “many people confuse the careers they hold for their purpose in life”, and now I go my emails and find this, it’s amazing how the father works, you are indeed moved by his spirit. As for me, it was recently when I was pondering about what I want. There is a lot that is happening in my spirit right now, I am still waiting to see what shall become of it all.
I hear you Dytsah, I pray that Yahuah will lead and guide you all the way. Stay grounded in the word and keep your eyes on Him!
I appreciate this post. I want to know that I am doing exactly what the Most High wants me to do. The challenge for me is I have so much regret for the life I have lived and choices I made that caused harm to myself and others. I struggle with guilt and shame on a daily bases. I want to be free to know that I am doing the Father ‘s will without the harrasment of the spiritual voices that tempts me to doubt and reminds me of the rejection I experienced as a young child and past sins. Yah is faithful through it all, giving me hope in His word and bringing experiences like this post to keep me hoping for a better day. I find lasting joy in Him alone.
Praise Yahuah… Deborah I’m glad you’re finding your joy in Yahuah… keep on pressing in to Him… feeling guilty is something that we all go through at times… not one of us are perfect, not even one. But praise Yahuah when we fall if we come to him with a sincere heart, and we turn away from sin, He hears us, he forgives us and picks us back up. “….’we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of trespasses, according to the riches of His favour…’ Eph`siyim (Ephesians) 1:7
Good morning my beautiful sister! All praises to TMH this morning! This morning as I read your email I begin thinking about how Yahuah has separated me from a whole lot.I really don’t know what my purpose is in life other than to raise my children up in a way that when they get older they won’t depart from it.I feel have done so much wrong by not being honest with myself. It’s caused me to err alot. But I also feel Yah leading, guiding, and strengthen me day by day to be the role model that I need to be for my children. And I tell you that’s actually what keeps me going. But I feel that because of another being under the same roof(their father) that it’s really hindering me to continue what I been teaching them.
I’m really sorry to hear that Jasmine… my prayers are with you.. may Yahuah restore, and may He lead and guide you all the way. Always remember, He’s not finished with you yet. (big hugs)
May The most high Yah bless you all in the mighty name of Yahusha Ha Masiach. Please pray for my strength. 20 years ago I had it all together; great husband, career, sanity and the Ruach Ha Qodesh. My husband passed and I lost everything. I know Yahuah draws nigh to a broken spirit and contrite heart do I will fight. Depression and sickness has taken over my life and I haven’t been living for the Most high. I just left Christianity and I’m like a lost and alone sheep who cannot hear his voice as I once did; however I know he lead me here to let me know I’m never alone, and he is with me. Your music soothes me and I thank Yahuah for you. Please pray my strength sisters. Yahuah blessings to you all.
Bernadette, thank you for sharing your story with us. You will definitely be in our prayers sis. I’m very sorry for your loss – please keep believing that Yahuah will make a way 💛 I pray for your comfort and healing during this time 💛
My current situation is not knowing what sort of Job/career I want to do anymore. I am currently seeing a psychologist, so I know I will be making progress, slowly. The thing is, my dreams and desires were burnt down by other people decades ago and now I don’t have the same pull of desires anymore. I went through a period of time where I went through 30 or so jobs in the space of 8 years. It destroyed my vision and purpose. That’s exactly what the Devil wants to achieve. I am trying to take back what the Devil stole. I know I want to do Bible college, but I don’t have the money;so I need a job, but I don’t have any vision of what I am to do. I need prayer for discovering vision for my life, not just getting a job for the sake of it to please others/man, but to serve God well. Thank you for hearing me. Also, I love your song :Good Morning Yah”…I nearly cried, and I’m a guy. I was surprised when I saw you sing in your studio. I was imagining a completely different type of person. You sung that song so well. Thank you Yeshua is blessing you greatly and will continue to make you blessed to be a blessing.
Hi Hadarah
I felt compelled to email you today.
I just want to say Thanks to Yahuah for the gifts that he has given you and for your obedience to do his will. Your music is a soothing balm and a comfort in times when words are impossible, your music expresses what we often need and cannot voice.
I pray and believe that through all your waiting for the things that Yah has for you that you are supported and loved. We often forget about the person behind the music and the blog and what they may be going through in their lives. I pray Yah continues his work in you and and blesses and keeps you even in the difficult moments.
May our heavenly father continue to shine his light on you and bless you.
Fumi