[PERSONAL STORY]
I hate to admit this, but I tend to spend a little too much time thinking about the past, and dreaming about the future. Anyone else out there ever struggle with that? It’s a huge challenge for me to just stay right here in the present moment where everything is peaceful.
As much as I would like to deny it, I struggle with feeling overwhelmed when there is no real pressing or apparent reason for it. Shifting my thoughts out of overly emotional places is a consistent battle for me. Sometimes tears just take over my eyes without my permission, and I start to feel like I’ve lost the battle. Other times it feels like I’m winning and I feel calmness and peace of mind.
On the days when I’m winning, it’s usually because I chose to stay focused on the Word of Yah. This morning I noticed that I changed my pattern, and I didn’t like the results. Instead of reading The Word first thing and posting a scripture pic on social media, I started consuming social media. I was watching cute little babies giggle on Instagram, and happy smiling family pics. The pics brought me joy cause they were beautiful, innocent, inspiring moments, and yet seemingly out of no where – tears – not the happy ones – crept up and took over my face without my permission again. A downward spiral of thoughts followed suit.
What happens between the joy and the tears often remains subconscious and difficult to understand. But praise Yah cause He’s healing me day by day. I refuse to let go of the stability and peace that is found in His Word.
I’m also learning to notice my thoughts, take them captive (as it says in 2 Corinthians 10:5), and turn them over to Yahuah. I’m learning how to stop judging myself for my feelings when I have them, and learning to accept myself so that I can be more authentic in life.
Part of letting go of fear, which we discussed in the last blog post, is learning to see your reality for what it is – instead of what you imagine it to be. It’s staying in the present moment and doing what needs to be done because there is value in doing it, regardless of the excuses. We have to learn to recognize what really matters to us the most, moment by moment, and not judge ourselves for that. We have to start addressing the core issues lurking around at our deepest levels, and prioritize the things that keep us in balance – whatever those things may be.
I want you to be honest with yourself. If you sometimes struggle to feel like everything is in balance, maybe it’s because things have shifted away from what really matters the most for you. That’s what often happens for me. So i’m learning to be more authentic.
The Mirriam-Webster dictionary defines authenticity as : real or genuine : not copied or false. : true and accurate.
If you want to spend more time focusing on the things that matter most, leave a comment below and type,
“I wanna be more authentic.”
Throughout this week, pay attention to the moments when you might be shoving things under the rug emotionally. If you snap unexpectedly, or say something emotionally driven, if you shut down and go silent, or if you “randomly” burst into tears – try not to let the moment go too far without stopping to ask yourself:
Wait… where did that come from?
Why do I feel like this?
Is this emotion based on something that is actually real? Or is this based on a story that I’m telling myself …
Do I need to reevaluate and look at this differently?
I know it’s not always easy, but see if you can set aside a little time to address some of the things that often go unadressed this week. You may have things going on within your relationships with friends or loved ones, at your job, or something going on in your own heart. Whatever is happening, no matter how simple or complex it may feel, just breathe, keep it real, and be authentic. And when it starts getting hard, be more authenic still.
‘I have strength to do all, through Messiah who empowers me.’ Pilipiyim (Philippians) 4:13
As we all try to figure out this thing called life, and the place we have in it, let’s just take it one step at a time. Seek ye FIRST, the Kingdom of Yah. Not second – but first. (Matt 6:33) Even if it’s just a morning thought that comes to mind as you read a scripture, that thought will carry you through the ups and downs in your day if you let it. Then focus on your family and your contribution to this world. You don’t have to be all things to all people everywhere at the same time, just focus on what really matters the most, right here and now.
Before I end this post I just want to say thank you to everyone who has been supporting the latest single I just released called, “Healing Me.” After releasing that song, I realized how desperately I need to remain and be more authentic in life. That song could not have happened without the journey that came before it, and the journey that I’m still on to this very day.
I’ve decided to stop putting any kind of pressure on myself to perform or produce music in any particular time frame, and just allow Yah to continue healing me authentically. As badly as I want to be fully healed right now, and continue making a significant contribution to the world with my music, I need to take my time, stay focused not only on my mission and vision, for Set Apart Heart, but also for the big picture of life.
I’ll be in California for the next 5 weeks enjoying my family and spending lots of time with my wonderful hubby. I may not be blogging a whole lot during that time, you’ll still be in my heart and mind. I pray the healing continues to flow in all our lives. Enjoy the video below if you haven’t already seen it. And if you have, share the video with someone who might need a little inspiration. I hope the song continues to make space for healing in our lives again and again.
If you’re ready to continue to focus on what really matters most in life, go ahead and say so down in the comment below. Let’s take off the masks and keep it real.
I wanna be more authentic… don’t you?
“Pray for one another, so that you are healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous one accomplishes much.” Ya‛aqoḇ (James) 5:16b
Let’s keep pushing forward my friend, you’re worth it.
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Hi there, I’m Hadarah Batyah. I sincerely believe that in order to have a spiritual walk that is authentic and true, the Word of Yahuah must be written on the inside of our hearts. That's why I write scripture songs and set apart music. Although I don’t have everything in my spiritual life all figured out, I know that Yahuah gave me the gift of music to serve Him and encourage your heart. I pray you'll be inspired by what you see on this blog. If you're curious and wanna know more- I tell it all on the
Amn.HalleluYah🙏🙌🤗💗
All praise to Yahuah Most High 🤗 thanks for stopping by ShamarYah. Stay blessed!
My YAH,
Your Healing Me is a song that brings peace to my spirit.
THANK YOU
Yah be praised 😌
A Beautiful healing song!! So many people are going through trials, I can name many myself!! Looking forward to sharing!! Continue your beautiful gifted works!!
Glad you’re enjoying the music Yahvon, Yah bless you!
You are such a blessing hadarah thank you for the inspiration praising yahuah
I am ready
Praise Yahuah – I’m glad to hear that Cynthia. Let’s keep moving forward together 😌
Beautiful song from a beautiful lady!
Praise Yah… i’m glad you’re enjoying the music QueenAna! Yah bless you sis.
I’m so down. Thank you for your time and consideration. Keep up the good work and May Yah continue to bless you and your family Barak Ahthah!
Yah bless you and yours as well Isscar! Glad you’re here for this 🙂
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Thank you sis for this. All praise to Yahuah this is something I needed to read, I have been feeling the same lately. Thank you for being honest and sharing this with us all.
Absolutely Jazzmin – Yahuah’s will be done in and through us all. Love you lots sis!! Let’s keep it real, and keep on looking up. (BIG HUGS)
Let’s keep on climbing until Yahusha ha’Machiah allow us to reach that place where YHWH wants us be, and also regarding our other issues they will come and then Abba Father. Brings us his Shalom
Yes – He sure does bring us His Shalom… would be lost without it. All praise to Yahuah Most High… Shabbat Shalom sis! Sending lots of love 🙂
Hello my friend. My hubby & I want to be more authentic in our lives together as husband & wife. I love all of your music that YAH gives to you. Thanks for sharing your love, encouragement through your beautiful music & you have a very strong anointing when you sing praises to YAH!!! BLESSINGS TO YOU & YOUR HUBBY!🙏🏻
Thank you for shairing Emma 💛 All praise to Yahuah Most High! May we all continue to grow in authenticity and truth. Appreciate the encouraging words! Prayers all around 🤗 Shabbat shalom
Im tired.. Im tired of being everywhere and everything for everybody but me.. I wanna vacation.. But its like i do it for tmh’s grace but I know he sont want me to be burdened..
May Yah provide for your every need Chasity – I pray Yah’s blessing on you sis.
When I think a thought that is not of Yahuah I quickly rebuke it and bring it to naught. Instantly it’s gone. I check myself daily and ask what are you doing. Then I find myself laughing. Praise Yahuah Most High. I know he’s got me and the thought is gone.
Thank you Hadarah. Stay blessed in Yahuah.
Praise Yahuah 🙂 May Yah bless you too Lolita
I recently thought a couple who were in the faith were authentic but I found them to be worldly. Their thoughts were all so-called white people are Edomites. I told them it wasn’t true and they turned on me. They criticized me on my clothes. I told them that Yahuah Most High is looking at your heart not your clothes. They are stuck there by camp doctrines. We parted ways. I felt it was best to do so.
Sorry to hear about your experience Lolita… there is a lot of falsehood out there. And regardless of who the Edomites are, the scripture clearly says we are not to hate the Edomite, so I dont understand why camps want to make such a big deal about the Edomites anyway… keep looking up, Yah will leadand guide you all the way.
Sis Hadarah, I tried once more to show the couple who the scriptures say they are. Again..they wanted me to wear a dress down to my ankles. They are stuck when my understanding is beyond that. I praise Yahuah in all things.The head of the man is Yahshua. They insist that I wear fringes. Where is this coming from? Isn’t it pertaining to the makeup of them temple and not man?
I appreciate you.Shalom.
I want to keep it Authentic and real. Please keep us in prayer – there is only 6 days left before we need to leave. We still haven’t found a place to live yet. I trust The Almighty Creator to help us during this time. We know our Heavenly Father doesn’t want us to be homeless. I have been crying so much since these two weeks. I do know the Almighty Creator has a place for my husband and myself. Many thoughts and many blessing Hadarah.
Thanks for shairing your prayer request Amelia, Yahuah is always on time. There’s a lesson in all life’s ups and downs so dont lose your belief no matter what. I pray Yah will provide for your every need! Trust in Yahuah with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path. Prov 3:5,6
Our most High Yah is a keeper and close friend. We are to keep our minds stayed on him. It is he who keeps us in perefect peace, because we trust in him. Trust in Yah with whole heart lean not of your own understanding of it. In all your ways acknowledging him as your leader. He hides you from all evil. Close your eyes and Tadah HallalwYah.
Thanks for shairing Kelvin 😌
Sister, I love the geninuness of your worship music to YAHUAH ELYHOIM. It reminds me of my encounter with Yahusha as I was sitting on a bench in the park crying my eyes out bc my husband at the time was divorcing me and turning from the church against people me. As I was crying I felt a powerful presence and I slowly lifted up my eyes, and I see a Jewish man with his back towards me, facing the kotel wall with men with black suits/ black hats others hand on those tallits praying at the wall by he stood out from among them. He had on this long white garment with a bold blue stripe around the hem. He slowly turned around and showed me the nail prints in his wrists, I’m in awe the whole time, my eyes lift up to see his face and he has 🔥 in his eyes, and then he is gone, I sit there taking all of this in, like what just happened. I get in my my car to leave and He says ” BE PATIENT” in my ear. I will never forget how fulfilled I felt in His presence and I didn’t feel alone. YAH is truly healing me and now I’m ready to move on.
I’m glad you were able to have that positive experience Alicia – thanks for shairing your story with everyone- May Yah continue to bless you in a personal way!
This is very beautiful. It’s me all the way😀. This too is something that I am working on. Let’s pray for each other encourage each other and do this. Healing is better when you are not alone. I love you Hadarah Always
Praise Yahuah 😌 that’s why I shared my story cause I know I’m not the only one lol. Yes prayer changes things thanks for the prayers Nichole, and I will keep your name in mine!! Sending love back at you. May Yahuah continue to work in and through us all 💛
Love this post Hadarah. I definitely want to be more authentic. You are so right when you say put Yah first & cast down thoughts which are not like Him. I try to start my day in prayer & also say the Shema before I leave for work. My day is noticeably different on the days when I don’t. I thank Yahuah for you & what you are doing for the daughters of Zion. Enjoy your trip. May it be a time of refreshing.
Thanks for the encouraging words Yvette. I’m glad you understand and that you wanna be more authentic too! May Yahuah lead and guide us all. Sending love and prayers. Yah bless you 😌
I wanna be more authentic!… I’m So Ready.
Praise Yahuah – glad to hear it Le’ah! Sending love and prayers 😌💛
Shalum Hadarah! Loved reading your post and I too am working on being more authentic. Whenever I want to cast down thoughts that are not of the Most High, I think about the scripture Philippians 4:8. I pray you enjoy your time in California!
Shalum Falon! Thanks for the encouraging words 😌 Just arrived in Cali yesterday and everything is going well! Praise Yah. And that’s a great verse- love it 💕 “For the rest, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is righteous, whatever is clean, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good report, if there is any uprightness and if there is any praise – think on these.”
Pilipiyim (Philippians) 4:8
This year more than ever, I realized that I needed to be authentic to myself and allow myself to be in the moment. So I started meditating in Yah daily. It’s not easy but it helps! So I thank you for this post. It’s very inspirational!!! & motivating. Thawadah & Baraktah Ahchwath!
Praise Yahuah – meditating on His Word and Who He is definitely helps!! I’m glad you’re feeling inspired and motivated – all praise to Yahuah Most High!
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Shalum achuth and family. Thank Yahuah and thank you for sharing these words which h has put in your heart. #me too. I also struggle to be in the present moment, I also feel overwhelmed sometimes, I also have days when I feel like I’ve lost my balance, there are also days when I feel like I am winning, when the presence of the father I can feel in my heart, and the prayers won’t cease from my soul and I am immersed in the word. I also want to overcome these inconsistencies, I want to stay my mind on him and his set apart spirit and truth. I know it will take practice, I think I am not doing enough. The father is a vessel of all wisdom. He will guide us in how to achieve that height, I also have picked a few tips on some of the comments above, I better start working, harder this time.
My day started off bad. But instead of giving up on it I decided to lay my body in bed. I put instrumental music on, and started praying, communing with the higher power, and expressing all that my heart could pull out of the prayer bank and randomly reciting his laws and commandments in between. By the 6th hour I began to feel better and balanced. Then I went to my emails, and here is this post. Thank you.
That’s beautiful… all praise to Yahuah Most High… I’m so glad that this post was able to come in time to support you along your journey – and most of all I’m glad you’re feeling better… Yah bless you and let’s keep on looking up!
Wow! Wow! Wow! Thank you, sister Hadarah! Just what I needed. I agree so often we think about the past. Love this song. Praise Yahuwah! He knows exactly what to send me and in His perfect timing. He knows my name. HulleluYAH! Praise, Honour and Glory to you, Father Yahuwah.
Hi Menorah, I’m really happy to hear that this was what you needed – I pray Yahuah continues to lead and guide us in all truth as we trust in Him. Sending big hugs your way.
I totally understand where your coming from. I often find myself in the early mornings with my mind set to sing songs of praise to TMH, and Reading scripture outloud myself before praying. I’ll sometimes find myself scrolling through my instagram and wishing that I can be just like the other happily married brothers and sister that are set a part and setting the example of keeping Yah’s laws, statutes and commandments and celebrating only Yah’s Holy days and having Holy convocations with other people who are set apart from this world…before I know it I’m shedding tears and I finding myself reverting back to the past to when I was engaged to the father of my children and how I so desperately wanted to walk this journey of truth with him. But I am constantly reminded that it’s time to move on. I want to be Authentic in everything that I do, say and think. Time to live in the present and leave the past in the past and press towards the future Yah has in store for me. Thank you so much my sister for your encouraging words weekly. This blog has helped me realized and helped me to face reality for what it is. Yah bless. And I will be waiting until your next blog. Enjoy your time with your husband💜
Yah bless you too Jasmine!! I pray Yah will provide for every single one of the desires on your heart. He’s the one who placed them there. Through it all we learn to trust in Him!! And thank you for your kind words – my husband and I are enjoying one another very much 🙂 I will definitely blog again when the time is right – Yahuah’s will be done. Sending love! And remember – you’re never ever alone – Yah is with you even now.
APTTMH Yahuah! I always try to keep it real, as real as I know how. I’m ready to leave the past behind. Every time I try to leave the pass in the pass, my husband always say something that tricker the pass. It never fails he knows how to push those pass buttons and when he doesn’t something in me just snap, and I lose my temper with him. He always say that don’t know body care about him. I’m so tired of hearing this same oh same oh. My husband is a very selfish person who doesn’t understand stand that it not all about him. If I had a chance to do my life over, I wouldn’t be married, I know wishes don’t come true if they did I would’ve never gotten married.
Don’t get me wrong, I know that marriage can be a beautiful thing and it’s ordained my Yahuah, but, sometimes I believe that a person can get married to young. The man that married me has cause me to have trust issues, I don’t anymore, my only trust is in Yahuah, if it was for Yahuah I don’t know where I’d be right now. One thing I know is that, my heart, belong to Yahuah and only Him. Thank you for this song and this post it came at a time that I really need this, just by listening to your praise of healing song, the anger that I felt after my husband pushed the wrong buttons has been removed. APTTMH Yahuah, and you sister!
Elaine I’m really sorry to hear that you and your husband are struggling… one important thing to remember is that there are always two sides to every coin… sometimes there are deeper things to be addressed than what lies on the surface. I’m not a Counsellor but if your husband feels like no one cares, and he keeps repeating it, there could be a real void there that he’s longing for someone to fill. A lot of times we are afraid of looking back to see what needs to be dealt with that hasn’t been… unresolved issues always reoccur. So if you’re tired of hearing your husband say that no one cares, and you’re doing all you can to make him feel loved, you cook you clean and rub his belly lol maybe it’s time to find out why he feels that way. I understand it’s affecting you but it may or may not have started with you. Peel back the layers. Is there a void from his past that was never filled that he needs to address? Seek Yah on the matter and don’t be afraid to get outside counsel as well. Don’t be afraid to actually listen to what’s beneath the words that people are saying. There’s always more. Yah bless you and your marriage I pray that healing and restoration will come. Prayer changes things. 💗
Sis, I enjoy your YAH inspired music. May YAH continue and bless you richly. You are in my prayers. Allow the Ruach of the MOST HIGH to fill you to you overflow
Thank you so much for the prayers, PenRose. He is doing just that! One day at a time… May the Most High Yah continue to fill us all 💕🤗
Praise Yah! HalleluYah!
Todah for being obedient to Yahuah in your life. As you prepare for your new role in totality know that you are not alone. I hold your efforts in high esteem, and feel the presence of Yahshuah amongst your praises. We are all preparing for our next adventure in Yahuah, to meet His people, to be present on His feast days. In my battle to connect, you bring a calm loving presence to my day, know this that you are precious in our sight, limited that it is. How much more in the sight of The Most High.. I look forward to knowing you are united with your husband, just as we await the coming of Yashua. Ahava Echod….One Love. You help us live the celebration of His Marvelous Light!!!
Thank you for the encouraging words sis and may you be encouraged as well! We are children of The Light! Let’s walk in the Light 😌 All praise to Yahuah Most High. Yah bless you and keep you in His hands. Shabbat Shalom 💕
More love dear, may yah keep on blessing you